You know Ivo, I believe it stains us for life. You have to have lived through it and come out the other side to understand. For years I had no faith whatsoever. I had no time to think about it. With plenty of time, it changes both its colour as its purposes. My version has kept me sane. I feel truly sorry for those who are tied to a prescribed religion as I do for those who have nothing in which to hold hope. I think it has to be something that originates from within. Which might be another form of predestination.
Strangely enough, religion was what finally drove Saul Leiter away from home in Pittsburgh to New York. Unlike as many think, it wasn't about trying to be make it as an artist in the Big Smoke, but simply to escape his father whom he loved but could not follow.
Rob
Complete understanding.
My father, by his behavior, proved the existence of ‘the devil’ more than anything else.
I was driven away from fait as a means because I only saw my father loosing himself and his family by making fait a unattractive goal.
Luckily, as you did, I found my version of fait as a means to accept what I can’t change or understand.
Thanks for sharing this part of your story, Rob.
Ivo
