Rob, perhaps I just tailored it to suit my personality, existentially-wise? I tend to be more of a waiting-for-something-to-happen type of guy than a busy-making-plans one. At best, I can be a busy-daydreaming type of guy
Daydreams are expensive - daydream believers have a hard time: it's written in the music.
I've not been above the odd dream or two, but generally, I find that things happen
to me - good or bad - more than I can make them happen of my own volition. This could be seen as the embodiment of laziness but not so: it's the acceptance that what's for me won't go by me and what isn't for me I may as well stop agonizing about.
Thing is, that psychology makes for a lot of empty time, and as you know, nature abhors a vacuum, so I find life fills up with all manner of shit I didn't look for, which brings me back full-circle.
Perhaps time for another plan or even, dare I say it, daydream?
Rob C