Thank you for the link Rob. Will keep it as reference when I have a clearer idea. Woke up this morning with this thread in mind and mulled over the question most of the day. One of the things that kept flashing somewhere in a dark corner of the grey matter was that photography seems some sort of "refuge" for my mind/ thoughts to dissapear into, particularly landscape photography.
Finding a 'refuge' is no bad thing at all, and something safe to help one de-stress is always better than the drugs route to that end.
Spaeaking of luck, just ried to post this to b e told I have timrd out! I really really give up!